Hi, again.
Another week has passed. It has gone by so slowly and quickly at the same time. I have dealt with a lot of health issues these past couple of weeks, which has brought me to a place of complete surrender at the foot of the cross. When I am sick at home, I have my mom there to run her fingers through my hair and take care of me. I have my dad to hug me and tell me he loves me. I have great medical facilities where I don't have to worry about whether or not I'm getting the proper treatment I need. These are things that never passed my mind prior to two weeks ago. These are things that I have taken advantage of for the past 18 years of my life.
There have been times in the past two weeks that I have been knelt with my face to the floor unable to control my crying as I plead for my Father to hear me. Truly, nothing apart from His grace has sustained me these past couple of weeks. Not my parents, not a good hospital, not my friends, nor a comfortable place to stay. Without His living word and the right He has given to me to draw boldly into His presence through the sacrifice Jesus made on the cross, I literally would not have been able to make it through some of the days these past few weeks. He truly is teaching me sole reliance upon Him to sustain me, and it is an incredibly difficult but beautiful lesson to learn. I don't want to be apart from Him, even for a moment, because I am seeing the depravity of who I am apart from Him. I have fallen so deeply in love with the nature of my Creator and there is nothing worth anything apart from Him.
Who am I that He looks upon me with such love? One of the times I was on my knees in my room crying out to Him, I saw His throne room in all its glory. He was sitting on His throne as everyone was praising Him. I then saw me lying there crying as everyone was exalting Him. He stood up and raised His hand to silence everyone. He then walked to me, knelt down, picked me up in His arms, and carried me back to His throne and just held me. How does the Creator of everything that ever was and everything that will ever be love me so much that He will pick me up and just hold me to Him in my state of brokenness? If these thorns in my flesh are what I had to go through to experience His faithfulness and to truly surrender to the cross, then I consider myself blessed. I have experienced the Lord in such tangible ways these past weeks and I truly am just left amazed.
The true meaning of the words to this song have become real to me since my stay in India.
Rescue- Jared Anderson
You are the source of life,
I can't be left behind,
No one else will do,
I will take hold of you,
I need you Jesus,
To come to my rescue,
Where else can i go?
There's no other name
By which I am saved,
Capture me with grace,
I will follow you.
You are the source of life,
I can't be left behind,
No one else will do,
I will take hold of you,
Cuz i need you Jesus,
To come to my rescue,
Where else can i go?
There's no other name
By which I am saved,
Capture me with grace,
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me,
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me,
I will follow you,
This world has nothing for me,
Im gonna follow you,
This world has nothing for me
As far as prayer requests go.... if you all would gather around me and pray that the Lord will give me discernment in regards to a few things. I am in the process of working through what I feel like the Lord is speaking to me and really need discernment. Also if you could lift up my team. There have been a lot of health issues among both the students and the staff.
Thank you all so much for your love and support. I love you all so much!
God Bless,
Elyssia
Another week has passed. It has gone by so slowly and quickly at the same time. I have dealt with a lot of health issues these past couple of weeks, which has brought me to a place of complete surrender at the foot of the cross. When I am sick at home, I have my mom there to run her fingers through my hair and take care of me. I have my dad to hug me and tell me he loves me. I have great medical facilities where I don't have to worry about whether or not I'm getting the proper treatment I need. These are things that never passed my mind prior to two weeks ago. These are things that I have taken advantage of for the past 18 years of my life.
There have been times in the past two weeks that I have been knelt with my face to the floor unable to control my crying as I plead for my Father to hear me. Truly, nothing apart from His grace has sustained me these past couple of weeks. Not my parents, not a good hospital, not my friends, nor a comfortable place to stay. Without His living word and the right He has given to me to draw boldly into His presence through the sacrifice Jesus made on the cross, I literally would not have been able to make it through some of the days these past few weeks. He truly is teaching me sole reliance upon Him to sustain me, and it is an incredibly difficult but beautiful lesson to learn. I don't want to be apart from Him, even for a moment, because I am seeing the depravity of who I am apart from Him. I have fallen so deeply in love with the nature of my Creator and there is nothing worth anything apart from Him.
Who am I that He looks upon me with such love? One of the times I was on my knees in my room crying out to Him, I saw His throne room in all its glory. He was sitting on His throne as everyone was praising Him. I then saw me lying there crying as everyone was exalting Him. He stood up and raised His hand to silence everyone. He then walked to me, knelt down, picked me up in His arms, and carried me back to His throne and just held me. How does the Creator of everything that ever was and everything that will ever be love me so much that He will pick me up and just hold me to Him in my state of brokenness? If these thorns in my flesh are what I had to go through to experience His faithfulness and to truly surrender to the cross, then I consider myself blessed. I have experienced the Lord in such tangible ways these past weeks and I truly am just left amazed.
The true meaning of the words to this song have become real to me since my stay in India.
Rescue- Jared Anderson
You are the source of life,
I can't be left behind,
No one else will do,
I will take hold of you,
I need you Jesus,
To come to my rescue,
Where else can i go?
There's no other name
By which I am saved,
Capture me with grace,
I will follow you.
You are the source of life,
I can't be left behind,
No one else will do,
I will take hold of you,
Cuz i need you Jesus,
To come to my rescue,
Where else can i go?
There's no other name
By which I am saved,
Capture me with grace,
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me,
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me,
I will follow you,
This world has nothing for me,
Im gonna follow you,
This world has nothing for me
As far as prayer requests go.... if you all would gather around me and pray that the Lord will give me discernment in regards to a few things. I am in the process of working through what I feel like the Lord is speaking to me and really need discernment. Also if you could lift up my team. There have been a lot of health issues among both the students and the staff.
Thank you all so much for your love and support. I love you all so much!
God Bless,
Elyssia
Do you not get taken to a hospital if you are sick? Whereas it might not be the US, there are hospitals with quite decent health care in India
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Elyssia! I almost cried myself just reading that amazing vision God gave you of stopping the praise to come and pick you up and hold you. <3
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